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Proud.

19 June 201619 June 2016 JosephineLeave a comment

I made it. I didn’t think I would. Nobody was sure that I would make it.

It was dark outside but there weren’t much lights burning inside as well. The day had passed and everybody popped their champange and ate their celebration dinners. And then there was only me left with mixed emotions. I had cried happy tears when I heard the news, that I graduated against all expectations. I was relieved and overwhelmed that everything I didn’t dare to dream of became reality. The one thing I fought for beyond all of my breaking points. All the unfortunate events and disadvantages lead up this very point where I had to make it right. I had to do it, not only for myself but for my family. For my dear grandfather who believed I could achieve everything I ever wanted. For my dear grandfather who was applauding and back petting when necessary. All I ever wanted was to make him proud.

I made it. I didn’t think I would. Nobody was sure that I would make it. He did. He always kept faith in me.

Days like these

13 June 2016 JosephineLeave a comment

It hurts to live without her but you got to do it. You have to wake up every morning and start breathing. Open the doors, brew coffee and be grateful. Realize what you have and have accomplished and what is left undiscovered. Sympathize with your siblings and stop fighting your parents over five dollars. Set yourself free, get out of the house and get lost, wonder. Feed your tiny little heart with beauty and surround yourself with your loved ones. We got once chance and we blew it. Own it, make up for lost time and find peace. Live and feel and breathe the morning air. Start again. Rise again. – things I should have told myself three months ago.

Faster

13 May 201624 April 2023 JosephineLeave a comment

‘Don’t panic’ I thought, as I rushed over the sidewalk onto the street, I ran, faster and faster, something was creeping upon me and I wanted to get rid of it, I wanted to escape the fear that hid in the rigdes of my shadow.

11th of May

11 May 2016 JosephineLeave a comment

I might be impatient but I’m just very exited. I wish for time to go faster whilst waiting and slower when experiencing. But I dont need to run, I dont need to rush. I keep my options open and my horizon wide. I’m way to young to be in a hurry. We’re only getting started.

after all pt 2

28 April 201628 April 2016 JosephineLeave a comment

I’d like to kindly thank you for being there for me when I needed somebody. I needed someone to talk to, no-one in particular. I’d want to thank you for all the times you’d make me laugh, but I’m easy to please, I have a bad sense of humor. I’d like to thank you for convincing me that love still exists, but I secretly knew that all along. I’d like to thank you for showing me bits of the world that I don’t know off, but they were cliché, and nothing extraordinary. I’d like to thank you for sharing your silent secrets, I’ll keep them with the others. I’d like to thank you, but it’s time for me to go. This wasn’t what I was looking for, after all.

#84

25 April 2016 JosephineLeave a comment

I’m scared I might want to fall in love with you because I’ll make me forget about her.

after all

25 April 201625 April 2016 JosephineLeave a comment

His mother can make him cry and his little brother will always be little. He seems strong but even his bones were broken one by one. He can’t sing but remembers the words from my funeral speech. He is different, but I recognize parts of me in him. He talks to others but still pays his own drinks. He shows me his secrets and locks them away again. He tells me everything and nothing at all. He is rare and new but feels like home. He falls in but never out if love. He thought he wasn’t much but he was, after all.