An ordinary sunday, – we had to much to talk about and forgot the time.
‘Is she asleep?’
‘Yes, I guess, it is way past bedtime. You can go I’m just going to stay here for another while. I will put her to bed, it’s fine, don’t worry’
An ordinary mondaymorning, – I found myself in his bed, his hand on my shoulder, the one that untied my shoes and carryied me to bed.
give love and recieve kindness
Your kindness shows in the way you tried to protect me from losing it all to nothing and nobody. No hard feelings – your smile is so contagious.
Some days I’m completely fine and others -a complete mess. I miss you here to share all of my adventures. I wish you were here to share the memories I’ve made. I want you here to hold my hand as I continue to grow. I’ve grown so much and I’ve become a better me. If only you’d be here to see how happy I am. Dear god we have been through so much. We walked through hell and back and we made it. We are here, right now in this moment, and I wish you would be closer. Look at me, all I want is to make you proud.
I only pick daisies to let them wither in my back pocket, next to the winks and smiles from passerby’s. I’ve been waiting for a rainy autumn, but the days are still long and the parks crowded with lovers. I don’t blame them for watching the sunset. I wondered where my people were, the heartbreakers, the one-day-at-a-time, the reckless, the wilder ones. I wanted to be like them, even though I had always been at the wrong place at the wrong time. Maybe I was fooling myself, maybe I was lying to myself. Maybe all I ever needed was love, the sparks and the butterflies. You made me realize that. I thought I could never love someone so much it hurts, and it does and it aches and my body is built of rose petals. I’d be a hopeless fight to dismantle the fireworks you set off inside my head. I’d be hopeless to love you and here I am, counting the days with the butterflies in the park.
I believe in soulmates as much as I believe that the planets speak to us.
That god gave us two-of-a-kinds and that the mercury retrograde affects us.
Cause we were put on this earth for a reason, to accompany the rest.
The morning rises and we roll out of bed.
You soulmate could be waiting for you on the balcony, to watch the day unfold.
For others, we hope to see that particular number pop up on your screen, for him or her to say all the words you wanted to hear. All you needed to know, and everything you both knew.
I’ve seen Milan, I’ve visted Paris, I graduated and I turned 18. But some nights my mind drifts and shifts and I can only think about the way your lips felt. That tiny little detail in this ever growing world.