hold me closer

I learned to love myself first. I learned to warm my hands by the fireplace. I learned who I was in the silence, my thoughts and I, we’re friends now. I learned how to feel enough, to move forwards in crowds, to get myself home every day. I learned to love myself, but that was never the issue.

I had to learn that people would wait for me. I had to learn how to be vulnerable, how to be soft. I had to learn that love would always be many things, exiting, difficult, wonderful and delicate. That loving is also leaving and it shouldn’t scare me. I will always have me, so hold me closer.