I’ve had a life before you and it wasn’t easy. I’ve survived a life before you.
I have lost many things in that time; love, strength, hope, friends and myself. I was not who I wanted to be. I was a clamshell, shut close around the edges. I did not speak to my family, my friends, my loved ones. I just moved around and stared but didn’t look. Life was a blur, life was messy. Whenever I wanted to tell something, whenever I wanted to make something clear, I started a fight. I wanted people to notice that something was wrong, but instead I got into a fight which resulted in me being closer than ever. I was a clamshell, alone with all my feelings and emotions which I couldn’t carry on my own.